When you're grieving someone who is still alive
Anticipatory grief often goes unseen. You're being the strong one holding it all together while feeling a million conflicting thoughts and feelings at once, while keeping it all to yourself.
A space for you to not have to hold it all together
Here, you don't have to carry it alone. You can speak the things that feel hard to say out loud, without trying to make sense of it.
The reality of anticipatory grief
You're living in the in-between. One minute you're holding onto hope, the next you're bracing for what's to come. Every change in your person brings a fresh wave of grief....and yet they're still here. It’s exhausting in a way that’s hard to explain.
You might feel constantly on edge, like you can’t fully switch off. Or completely drained, like everything is taking more effort than it should. You might notice waves of anxiety, overwhelm, or moments where you just feel shut down. That’s your nervous system trying to keep up with something that’s ongoing and uncertain.
This is a human response to something really, really hard.
I know this because
I've lived it
I was my Nan's caregiver and I remember when I was told she had one week to live. But that week turned into months...and eventually a year.
I lived in that constant in-between, wondering if this would be our last day, week or month together. It was a year of uncertainty, hyper vigilance, constantly adjusting and living with both hope and grief in a way I couldn't explain.
It was exhausting, confusing and incredibly lonely.
I know how heavy it feels and how much you end up carrying alone, because you just can't speak the words out loud.
The space I needed but couldn't find
Monthly online circles for those experiencing anticipatory grief. A space for support and connections while you care for someone you love.
This may be for you if you are:
Living in the uncertainty of not knowing what’s coming next, and finding that hard to carry
Trying to stay strong for your person while quietly feeling overwhelmed or exhausted within yourself
Experiencing waves of emotion, fear, sadness, guilt, love and not always having space to process them
Wanting support that understands both anticipatory grief and the impact it has on your nervous system
What anticipatory grief support looks like
A place where you don't have to navigate the unknown alone
A space where you don't have to be the strong one
You feel like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders, here you have a space to put that down...even just for a moment. You can be honest about how this really feels for you without needing to protect anyone's feelings.
Understanding what's happening in your body
Anticipatory grief can bring feelings of overwhelm, exhaustion and hypervigilance. I'll support you by bringing awareness to what's happening in your nervous system, to help you make sense of your responses and feel a little more steady in the storm
Somewhere you can say the thoughts that you can't say out loud
Often there's so many complex emotions, anger, guilt, resentment but also love, joy, hope. It can feel wildly confusing and I'm here to hold space for you to explore that without the need to justify or fix anything...because you are not broken.
1:1 Anticipatory Grief Support
1:1 anticipatory grief support is a space for you to bring what you’re carrying, in your own time and in your own way.
We don’t know what’s to come, and that uncertainty can feel incredibly heavy to hold on your own. But you don’t have to do that here.
Together, we gently explore what this experience is like for you,the emotions, the thoughts, and what’s happening in your body as you move through it. I’ll be there alongside you, holding space for whatever comes up.
